Reflection

As I reflect over the last nine months, I am unsure of what to say about my experience as a whole or how I feel about all of it. Surreal seems like a good word. Definitely not a time I'd like to repeat, ever. Heck, my last two years have been something I never imagined. So many highs and so many lows have pushed me further than I thought I could handle. Motherhood has been a far different experience than I thought it would be. I love my daughter. She is adorable, spunky, smart and has a load of personality! She loves people and animals. She is kind hearted and a sweetheart. She definitely keeps me on my toes. I guess, I feel inadequate as a mother and my struggles with that insecurity has been tough. I guess I thought I'd feel more like Mary Poppins and less like Ms. Hannigan from the movie "Annie". Ha ha. I expected better of myself. I know that my daughter loves me. I can see it in her face and I'm grateful that she sees past my short comings because she is a delight.
I can only hope that as we begin a new journey as we welcome my son into our little family, that I can continue to improve and be the best mom I can be.